22:10 - 19.05.2008
disneyland

my husband got a temp job painting the interior of uppermiddleclasssnobs' houses. the pay sucks, and he works 12hour days, 6 days a week. i find it hard to sympathize. if he had just taken care of the fines and such on his suspended driver's license back in march when he had the crash, he would have been hired at aldi a month ago. but no, he waited until the day the police issued a warrant for his arrest to even think about taking care of it. and he lied to me about his interview at aldi; he said he got the job, but couldn't start until his background check arrived. actually, of course, they refused to hire him because of the unpaid fines.

idon'tknowwhy he think he can lie to me like that and i won't find out.

i'm worried because i had a dream that he crashed the newold car headon. i think trennen is psychic because i keep having dreams that come true since i got pregnant. i only had them on occasion before, but now they've become quite frequent. i don't really mind, but when i have a nightmare like that, it worries me.

the other night i had a dream about a violent thunderstorm that wound down after a flash of lightning so bright that the dark, rainy night sky looked like high noon. i woke up, and it started pouring minutes later. there was extreme thunder and lightning, and there was actually a ground strike not too far from the house, resulting in the same flash of lightning i saw in the dream. the pets hated the storm, of course. eva bunny was thumping out the "danger, danger!" warning with her back foot for a good three minutes.

the storm wasn't the worst part of her night, though. when i woke up around noon the next day (it was sunday; i didn't have to be at work until four), there was a dead, deformed baby bunny in her cage. i was worried she was pregnant since my genius husband let her and frankie, our unneutered male, out to play together. but she only had the one sick little baby; i'm guessing she miscarried the others. and she did know that he was dead; she didn't put him in the nest she'd made, and she was keeping her distance. when i tried to get her out of the cage, she kept looking over at her dead baby, but after i told her "allgone bunny" a few times, she came out. i made my husband pull the dead baby out and dispose of it.

gods, i hope my trennen is okay.