i told a coworker that i'm pregnant because she was talking about the baby she had last halloween, which is when little trennen is due (no joke). she acted totally shocked, and i hate when people do that because i think i look totally huge and fat and disgusting. but i can't be mad at trennen for taking up space.

my husband was threatening to kick me out last week. i don't know where i would go, so i'm glad he changed his mind.

the most recent trainee in my department got fired becauseiwasmeantohim. that's what he says, anyway. actually, he got fired because he spent six hours yelling at me and throwing various objects and refusing to do his work. i had to stay over to pick up after him so my coworkers wouldn't come into meat-crusted saws and a stinking seafood case in the morning. he said he did it because i ws meaning mean to him, which is a shitty excuse to begin with, and i don't think that i was mean to him at all. the bitch (aka manager) almost started laughing when i said he was mean. my supervisors both had the same conclusion: "yeah, right." ted, my austistic coworker, told me that i'm the nicest person he's ever worked with. which made me really happy because i try to be nice to him and everyone else there.

but i feel bad for ted because i know that alotofpeople treat him badly because he's autistic and they think they think he's just stupid and lazy. he will work really hard if you're nice to him and know how to treat him. for instance, if you give him a whole list of stuff to do at once, he gets overwhelmed and might do one or two things halfway before he gets too distracted and gives up. or if you give him a direct command, like, "ted, cut a box of pork!" he'll do it really slowly because he feels like he's under pressure. but if you say, "hey, ted, do you want to cut a box of pork?" or "hey, ted, do you feel like mopping the floor?" he always says yes and gets right to work and does a good job. i've figured this out 1) by working with him and 2) by talking to him. he loves to talk, and i think he does a better job and doesn't worry about getting yelled at if you just talk to him and act like you're supergoodfriends. i think he's a pretty amazing guy. he finished his bachelor's at osu 15 years ago, and while he was there, he took german 101-104. he can still speak it well enough to carry on a decent conversation. i taught him the names of different meats in german, and he knows those now, too, after just one night of me telling him. and he is awesome with numbers and statistics.

i broke another stationary bike. the old one i rode for 4 hours straight as hard as i could back when i was anorexic-bulimic, and some metal part melted off and broke. the new one, which i haven't been pushing as hard now, obviously, since i don't want to kill trennen, broke the other day. the chain slipped off, and when i took the frame apart to fix it, i discovered that the piece stabilizing the wheel had disintegrated away. which explains all the black dust that kept appearing n the carpet. i am not going to buy another fanbike because they are loud and lowquality. i hope to get a magneticbike, which my friend kasch highyly recommened to me. he said thay're virtually silent and much more sturdy. he has one back home (in dresden), he says, that folds up almost flat so you can store it. but he thinks i might be too short for one like that because the seat doesn't move down or something like that, and i'm only five-three.

kasch, his roommate chris, and i have all been trying to "steal" the new nin album from the official website. it says you can get it by email, but none of us has recieved it yet, after several hours, and we're pretty pissed about giving away our emails for nothing when you know we'll get all sorts of spam from nin now. i hate celebrities. especially when they lie to me and give me false hope for new music.