22:25 - 01.12.2007
who framed roger rabbit?

trying to get mein verlobter to try&helpme pick out a name for our deadbaby is worse than pulling teeth. has no ideas, no preferences, whateveryouthinkisgood, but dislikes everything i suggest with vehemence. was zum teufel? then decided that wolgang is a nice name, as a counter to my suggestion of amwolf, i suppose.

we have 4 newmice. 6 total. 3 boys (klaus, kai, ulf) and 3 girls (rudie--thought she was a boy originally--, kimi, alyssa). they're all whitemice, except rudie, who is a graymouse. all originally intended for the snake. i feel sorry for the boys; their cage sucks. but we can't afford to get them a nice, 2story cage like the girls' until the friday after next.

i think about the violet dream i had, the night i felt certain i could recover. that was alongtimeago.

the scale that said i weighed 140 or whatever, it turns out it's about 30 pounds high. i wanted to smash it with a hammer for causing me such agony, but my fiance wouldn't let me.

it's newyearseve, and i can't get drunk because i have to be at work at 7:00 tomorrow morning. i'm notquitting my job and i'm notquitting school. i'm just putting my foot down and refusing to work on schooldays (mwf) or past 3pm on weeknights before class (tr) so i can study and clean the house. no sense in killing myself. death's presence is strong enough around here as it is.