06:18 - 20.03.2007
mirrors & razorblades

trying to be on the �water� diet today�just fruits, veggies (okay, maybe a little hummus for some protein so i don�t drop over from exhaustion at work), water, herbal tea, and coffee. think i can do it? probably not. but i feel awful and bloated from last night�s binge, and i have to see my boyfriend tonight! have to explain to him about the yo-yoing weight�i was down a little the last time i saw him. but he used to date another mia, so he should know all about that.

today is oestarra, the vernal equinox and a good day all-around for pagans. i only hope that it will rain. i love a good rain�it�s so refreshing and cleansing and makes the air smell so earthy, fresh, and spring-y.

i have sooo many errands i need to run today: the bank, the library, the bookstore, the petstore, the drugstore, a couple others that i forget, which means i�ll have to drive. and i must make dentist, optometrist, and doctor�s appointments, which means i'll have to use the phone. i have a great fear of telephones and driving. even going to work and calling my boyfriend are nerve-wracking, so i�ll likely postpone everything yet again. or decide that i simply don�t have enough time to do anything. i also need to find some new shoes, as the chemicals at work have torn mine apart, purchase my boyfriend�s lovely birthday gift , look for a new trenchcoat (mine is falling apart; i can�t complain through, as i bought it used for a buck-fifty and have worn it almost daily for the past three years), and find a vegan checkbook.

�all your dreams are made/when you�re chained to the mirror/and the razorblade.�