06:18 - 20.03.2007
mirrors & razorblades

trying to be on the “water” diet today—just fruits, veggies (okay, maybe a little hummus for some protein so i don’t drop over from exhaustion at work), water, herbal tea, and coffee. think i can do it? probably not. but i feel awful and bloated from last night’s binge, and i have to see my boyfriend tonight! have to explain to him about the yo-yoing weight—i was down a little the last time i saw him. but he used to date another mia, so he should know all about that.

today is oestarra, the vernal equinox and a good day all-around for pagans. i only hope that it will rain. i love a good rain—it’s so refreshing and cleansing and makes the air smell so earthy, fresh, and spring-y.

i have sooo many errands i need to run today: the bank, the library, the bookstore, the petstore, the drugstore, a couple others that i forget, which means i’ll have to drive. and i must make dentist, optometrist, and doctor’s appointments, which means i'll have to use the phone. i have a great fear of telephones and driving. even going to work and calling my boyfriend are nerve-wracking, so i’ll likely postpone everything yet again. or decide that i simply don’t have enough time to do anything. i also need to find some new shoes, as the chemicals at work have torn mine apart, purchase my boyfriend’s lovely birthday gift , look for a new trenchcoat (mine is falling apart; i can’t complain through, as i bought it used for a buck-fifty and have worn it almost daily for the past three years), and find a vegan checkbook.

”all your dreams are made/when you’re chained to the mirror/and the razorblade.”